I spent all of Sunday down in Atlanta, GA for Mayhem where we saw a bajillion bands...freakin' AMAZING!
So here we are, at home with a hospice bed. We have a nurse that comes 5 days a week and cleans him up, gets him out of bed and gets him dressed and then a nurse tech that comes on Tuesdays and Thursdays for everything else.
I was just walking to the bathroom and Pawpaw was apparently "awake" and called me in and asked me if I wanted to make a long distance phone call to my phone so I'd have a call. ??? I asked him why I'd do that. He said, "You can you use my phone and make a long distance call and call your phone so you have a missed call from me. If you want...it doesn't matter to me."
Earlier, he said, "It's about time for me to start getting better." and continued to say that when he came with Melissa (my aunt) he told her he was coming home to die...and that if she wanted to say anything to him that she better say it now. And then he started to cry...I can't bare this...it's so hard. I love him so much. He had a really good day today...but I can't imagine being in my parents shoes. I hope to God it doesn't get like this with them...
I think because of the hectic schedules and with all the kids, all this madness has thrown me into overdrive since I’m pretty OCD about keeping up with my house. A friend of mine has been seeing me for acupuncture and it’s been going really well…except I still have anxiety bad enough to literally knock the wind out of me at moments. So I started a supplement of Chinese herbs called “Cleansing Spirit” yesterday that was given to me by my acupuncturist and so far I’ve been feeling pretty good…haven’t jumped into any anxiety or panic moods at all. We’ll see if this trend can continue for my own sake.
My grandfather has been in the hospital for the past couple of weeks. His liver cancer is still pretty bad but they noticed a spot on his back and upon inspection they came to discover that it was actually an infection that had been growing. They had to give him antibiotics and remove it so the wound had to be packed, but with him on the antibiotics he hasn’t been able to receive chemo for the treatment of the cancer…so that’s not good.
The in-laws came for a visit the week of the 4th and we went to the beach and had some fun. I have a set schedule so my only days off were Tuesday and Wednesday, but Travis and Shellah helped me to finally paint Zaid’s room! I’m not quite finished decorating but I do have two pictures for in the meantime.
The band is now a full band! We finally accepted a bassist but had to wait till he could fly back in from L.A. but we had a lot of good stuff going on Sunday! We really need to soundproof the room but first I have to clear out some stuff. I have been meaning to send a package to nativity for forever now, but I haven’t been able to score a box large enough, so I asked my mom to watch my kids tomorrow so I could go through some things and I will ship it out (at the latest) by Friday. I’m going to go through the tubs of clothes and donate, share, or sell huge piles or them and I need to re-list this baby furniture.
Zaid and Avalon are growing like weeds and they are both just as brilliant as ever. I’m still fighting over the school issue for Avalon next year. It’s so difficult for me to wrap my head around sending her to 4-year-old Kindergarten …I have to figure out a schedule for Nick and I since we both work. At least two out of five days I don’t go to work…but it’s also a matter of where to send her. We were going to send her to a Montessori based school but I’d rather have the money go elsewhere. Decisions, decisions. Zaid has been speaking very well and has been forming complete sentences. He’s so quiet and usually prefers to roar like a dinosaur than speak, haha! He had an absolutely perfect transition from crib to big boy bed; he goes right to his bed and stays there throughout the night and throughout each nap. I’m LOVING this.
Well, I suppose that’s all I have to update on for now. I have some yard work to attempt while the kids are napping. Kitty’s boys are playing PS3 right now (the new Ghostbusters game that Nick bought). We are going out tonight to go downtown for a friend’s Karaoke night so Kitty can completely blow out her vocal chords (literally) in order to completely heal them from being sick. There’s much to do. Too much to do.
I have more soccer pictures! Avalon's last game is this coming Saturday! I really need to take new pictures of the yard, kitchen, and my bedroom...there just aren't enough hours in a day! Kitty is working hard and got a car! She is also basically in charge of all of the stores! I'm working GREAT hours at my store and my boss has decided to come straight to me with every spare hour and has had me watch and manage the store several times, so that feels GREAT!
We just need a drummer!
I also visited Nina’s grave for the first time since she’s been buried. That hurt…but it was overdue. Today I’ll be doing laundry all day. I furiously cleaned the house last night so I wouldn’t have to worry about it today so I feel calmer than I usually would. Anyway, here are a couple of the pictures:
There’s not a whole lot to report.
Avalon starts soccer next week. And her games are going to be Saturday’s. So that’s fun and cute. Yesterday my sister put black and red highlights/low –lights in my hair.